So many have told me..complained to me..cried to me about stress and depression..but nv did i think it wld catch hold of me too.. i feel thrashed n bashed frm all sides.. its getting to me.. i cant slp at night.. i keep thinking..bt too many things n constantly get myself confused!
how m i gonna finish my economics syllabus by june? its impossible..n i ve to do everything myself.. i use 5 textbooks..sit with my syllabus specifications n write my own notes.. only if i m completed wit ma notes can i sit down 2 study cuz i dun hv a fixed textbook tt has everything! my syllabus is scattered everywhr..e sch juz dumped all these 5 bks on me wit e syallabus specifications.. n i still hv 70% of e syllabus unfinished.. cuz b4 this my teacher refused to let me tk things in2 my hands.. n insisted on her bloody slow teaching n took 2 months juz 2 finishing one miserable unit..nw i hv 2 finish like 4 units in 2 months... e prescribed timing for this 1.5 yrs course is that i shd finish one unit in 3 months.. nw i ve 2 finish it in 2 weeks!
my parents r spending so soo sooo much! juz got my fee structure 4 econs n eng papers.. 6 units each..e didgits i hv e pay to london university n e british council of india is enuf 2 give any parent a shock..haiz.. e guilt is killing me.. n doing my subjects in such a rushed manner.. i dun think i can guarantee them gd results.. i m getting really scared..
wat kinda deep shit hv i gt myself in2?!?!?!
n english is damn difficult.. all about langage and stylistic feature analysation.. n literature..henry e fifth..e importance of being earnest by oscar wilde..short stories(ard 30 of dem) by somerset maugham.. urgh..!! i heard ajc gt 40% all 'A's.. even scarier to think tt i gotta compete wit all these ppl back hme hu r doing so well.. mom n dad r gettin really worried as well.. e guilt is Fing hell..enuf to slit my throat n hang me 4 e vultures 2 eat up!
pray 4 me guys!my exams start on may 22nd.. n dun be pissed if i dun reply 2 ur mails or dun update so often.. i alr owe a lotta ppl apologies.. tc!
ma ee ya hee ;
ALL ABT ME
My name is Anusha!
sassy seventeen, 28th nov,
saggitarian
not a chick.not yet a chicken!
